In 2014, I was 25, crashing with a friend, working part-time at a bookstore in Princeton, and typing free poetry for strangers. I got a job art modeling for a sculpture class at PAFA, which meant I had to get up at 4am and run to catch the Dinky–a little train that left campus and took you to the real station–before finally arriving in Philadelphia, then walking the long stretch from 30th to Broad. I remember the dark early mornings, the anxiety of not knowing if I would make it in time for class, hugging my green backpacking bag as a pillow for the long ride from Jersey to Pennsylvania. There was relief whenever I made it to 30th Street Station on time, the steaming chai lattes I bought from Au Bon Pan with whatever cash people tipped me for poems, that week. I remember the resonant sonar of the station, where inside was grand but contained–a lovely flow and hustle within it.
That first morning, as I headed down JFK Blvd. Bridge, the sun struck. It was autumn and I had just fallen in love with the orange and red velvet trees all around me. Everything was a new color. That morning, the colossal, iridescent reflections across the newer buildings took my breath away. “This is a city built from crystals,” I thought, basking in the glow of orange, pink, blue, and yellow glass.
Now, in 2018, people hesitate when I tell them I moved to Philly because I fell in love with the architecture. I still feel like just beyond my reach, a glass, crystal city floats just above the clouds–hovering over us, tranquil and pull of soft, warm light, pastel blends.
“Do you think Philly is a vortex?” I ask. Everyone stops before their answer, considering. Everyone stumbles over silence trying to give sound to their experience in ways that are new and exciting.
This silence, this “yes, but–“, this grappling is why I created Literary Creatures. It’s why there’s no other place where this performance could have existed–and why Philly, and the people I’ve loved contained within it–sit on one of the most potent, resistant, entangled magical conduits I’ve ever experienced. The only thing that comes close is the magic of motion, of wandering and travel.
The year was spent in quiet waiting.
Whenever friends would ask me what I was working on, I fumbled. “I think it’s going to be an art show. Something that combines Typewriter Poetry with sounds. And black-light.”
As summer shifted into fall, Literary Creatures tumbled miraculously into place. There were loose plans–very loose, like the soil of a newly burnt field, simply waiting for growth to come find it. An idea of black-light, of a synthesizer; of a typewriter poem and a room dressed in ethereal plantlife. After years of scattering tiny seeds of what Literary Creatures could be, I signed up for Philadelphia’s Fringe Festival. It felt on the surface like a whim pulled along by the project’s deeper desires: a desire to manifest, to remain fixed, to morph into a concrete experience; an event.
Literary Creatures was birthed and rebirthed at 10pm every Friday and Saturday night, running for three consecutive weekends from September 7th to the 23rd. Each night, I expected I would perform to an empty room. Each night, I was pleasantly surprised to find friends and strangers coming in to watch and participate in the show.
Some performances were long. We raged past the show and burrowed furiously into the night. Other performances were lonely and quiet, intimate, with soft conversation and relaxed acceptance of letting the flow be. On the last night, our voices rose and fell in play with one another, harmonizing at their own accord to the perfect pitches, intervals, frequencies.
Sometimes, we lost touch.
We often quickly regained it.
Each day of the show, I was a mess of anxious nerves, all bundled up like tangled Christmas lights. This nervous adrenaline, I would soon realize, was more than terrifying butterflies. It was the catapult–the integral part of the show. To charm these flutters, I entered into routine. Every night, I cleaned and set the stage with mindful intention and ritual: sweeping the floor, moving the chairs, inflating the air mattress, positioning the flowers, the black-lights, the threads–and of course, carefully unraveling the Christmas lights. Often, my friends would pitch in, arriving early to help and stay late to clean. I watched their own methods of preparation and was struck by the beauty in their graceful folding, the quickness in their steps.
All night, we were confronted by the challenge to show up.
–(The nights were only won upon arrival.)
This was a ride–a test–to see if we could break through. Was Literary Creatures–was I, were we–was anything worthy of the magic that is serendipity, connection, chance? I didn’t know. But every show, I felt it–
a calm rush much like the sea, embracing each and every part of me
–a knowing that this was it, this was it, THIS WAS IT. All would be fine.
And all was.
In Literary Creatures, luck, chance, spontaneity, improvisation, connection, synergy, and flow are central to the work.
An interactive and participatory performance art piece, a different show revealed itself each night. The set, like all of my work, gives the distinct impression that a kid has built it, perhaps on a hot summer day, after rummaging around in her parent’s garage for hours, collecting everything and anything that could be made of use. In Literary Creatures, I created a quirky, otherworldly set drawn from loosely acquired, found objects: an air-mattress dressed in Halloween and Christmas lights, fake but vibrant neon flowers, and a strange, glowing green impenetrable web spun from copious amounts of cotton.
The entire performance took place in this alien bathhouse. Constructing the set was a meditative act, often bleeding into the show, itself. In the vibrant romance of black-lights, neon face-paint, lime green webbing, and fluorescent flowers, the alien bathhouse’s true purpose emerged. It was the vehicle that helped encourage participants to let go of their tired, worn, everyday roles and breathe life into a new dimension based upon nostalgic, do-it-yourself, whimsy.
I have always been a Resourceful Scavenger.
Our heroine, A. Ti Nyalien (pronounced “a tiny alien”), is a curious but soft-spoken, ethereal creature attempting to bridge the gap between reality and other-worldliness. She began each show by gracefully acknowledging each participant with silent panning and purposeful eye-contact. She played a distinctive melody made of synthesized bells–a short song with no words which later repeated itself as humming, voices, piano, bells, and absent-minded whistles throughout the show. Inevitably, a story would emerge–sometimes about snow, other times about whales, and even sea turtles–before inviting the audience to shout out their “sounds.” As the show progressed, participants relaxed into a spirited mode of re/creation through musical instruments, voice, typewriter poetry, tactile vibrations, face-paint, thin rope, and intimate question & answers about connection, disconnection, loneliness, togetherness.
The vision of Literary Creatures was to inspire cathartic release through repetition, epiphany, intuition, instruction and consent, spontaneous creation, childlike wonder, and play.
Though seemingly passive and without narrative, Literary Creatures consisted of a structure brought upon the collection of found objects (and their placement), art and music therapy, improvised monologues, and the cultivation of everyday magics within mundane rituals–like cleaning.
Participants were often delighted by the rules of consent presented as an exchange of flowers. People were surprised and humbled by their own responsibility in sustaining a space’s spirit, a community’s flow. They talked afterward about the magic they were able to access within themselves, and expand upon deeper into the night. Someone said they were pleased watching me be free in a world built of my own making, through a character inspired by her own desires. In a subtle sense, Literary Creatures also delighted through its light suggestion of innocent, sexual energy and play, oscillating between quirky innocence (a bed as the bathhouse) and felt energy (tension among participants, and the potential for the night to expand endlessly, in any way, and in every direction).
Literary Creatures is a catharsis with intention and happenstance built upon intuition.
Trust in the magic of the moment was essential to the late night show’s ability to transform an old factory art loft into an intimate island of threaded connection floating leisurely through time and space. I do this work to reengage with reality. It is my core belief that inspiration can and must be fought for. The act of regaining an ancient memory of play in everyday living is a battle for reminders, and proof, that it is not only possible but lovely to tap back into this state of being. Though I inhabit multiple storylines and roles, my primary role as an artist is as Dedicated Will. By creating, challenging, and engaging in this way, I hope to cultivate, harvest, and spread the ever waning and waxing spirits of epiphany, magic, sensation, and memory.
The gift must be (re)distributed.
Long live the multiradicals,
for Imagination is the New Work.
Literary Creatures came into existence thanks to countless conversations and experiences with friends. Shoutout to all the friends I’ve made in Philadelphia who answered my question: “Is Philly a vortex?” with their honest, raw thoughts. Thank you to Jeff, a random coworker at a random job years ago who once sat on a bench in a park with me and told me he thinks everyone is aware of the mask which they wear. I’m still not sure if I agree. Thank you to friends and strangers who supported the work by purchasing tickets. Thank you train for brainstorming space + sound at strange intervals in the night. Thank you to everyone and anyone who held space for me as I verbally dreamed this production aloud. Thanks to repeat participants in the show–including _xandie as well as all the first-timers who are already ready to come back. Last but not least, this tiny alien would like to thank to Leigh aka the most solid contributor and dreamer to the project besides myself. Without your presence and insight, the Literary Creatures Philly Fringe Fest run would not have been. Thank you for the Mezcal, and for coming with me to find the perfect vintage amp. You shined your brilliance in the form of preacher songs, distinctive sounds, and on-the-spot crafting of a beautiful answer to my sad, sullen questions about sea turtles and light pollution.
May the north star always linger. May the Middle C’s/Seas ring out into eternity.
A native to the San Fernando Valley in Los Angeles, California, Billimarie Lubiano Robinson is a wandering artist based in West Philly. She graduated with a dual-degree in Poetry and Multimedia before typing Free Poetry for strangers across the country for five years. Currently, Billimarie writes, plays music, and paints in her home office and studio. She is a member of the Panorama Philly performing art space + collective in Grays Ferry. She enjoys walking over on the weekends at night when the entire building is empty, so she can work–alone–and catch the periodic trains passing by.
(Most photo credits go to Leigh.)